The birth of an Artist's image

I remember when I first started thinking about a website design and business cards. Choosing a logo and a name to represent myself with was a big responsibility.
I'm 18 and I think I have a message for the world but all I can think about is should I have a white or black background, and should I call it Heidi-web-art.com or something infinitely more clever?
No doubt having a name that has people questioning what I do, what does it mean and how do I spell it is what I want.
Having barely smelt the proverbial maturity that comes with being a legal adult that the title of my website would have to be the 'porcelain warrior' (@geocities) and an equally vague title on my business cards 'dreamscaping.' The website came to fruition, and the business cards wouldn't be printed for shame of not having my own dot com on the card.
This concern carried less weight a couple years later when the 'wandering octopus press' was printed, along with my name and number- with no proclamation of my profession. Or website address.
Two years ago, the creative side was feeling rather stifled, so in an effort so reinvent and revive an artist, 'wanderingoctopuspress.com' was created. The second of many revisions to the website design had begun, and I read deeper into frontpage help to learn about frames and creating a slightly more complex website.
It's fourth version, 15th revision, I haven't even moved past the introduction page.- I find it difficult to get it right the first time. Design for me is like chess, and unless I have every move planned out I cannot move forwards- every direction and possibility must be mapped otherwise I may as well trade in the King for Snakes and Ladders.

In all the effort, I forget about the purpose of the message as my vision is clouded by imagination.... I really don't remember any more what the point of this entry was going to be.

-H